Stronger

That's what I'm listening to right now, by Kanye West. It's actually kind of a cool song considering that he swears so much and I find swearing kind of distasteful. I guess I like the beat. So in this blog I wanted to weight my options about weather or not I should make my blog public. It's kind of funny that Angela and Tamara were so upset that I didn't want them to read my blog, I just feel like it's mine and it gets all my thoughts out in the open. And yes, sometimes I vent about them and probably in future blogs I will explain my beef with them, but I still love them to pieces.

I just decided that this blog is just for me then, figuring as whenever I have something important to say to either Tamara or Ang I phone them up ASAP. Actually that's not true, I tell them the unimportant things that are on my mind while all along I keep inside what is truly bugging me. The thing is though that over the past few years sometimes I really have no clue why I am not happy. I guess because I am so happy all the time I take brecks out of being happy or something. No that doesn't really make sense. I guess I just need a shrink.

This week has been okay seeing as how Gossip Girl started, but my friday was terrible and I didn't do too much work because I am sick and pretty much super lazy. I was planning to do tons of work friday night and all today. What a joke! I really should start pushing myself more because honestly if I keep doing this I have no one but myself to blame for not graduating.

So I just checked how much money I got from my last paycheck and I also got my smartbank or something. About 400$ all together was what it amounted to! That's exciting, so maybe not I can payback dad a bit and maybe go shopping because I honestly don't have any shirts or hoodies. I should start working as a server soon too sundays from 11-7, and maybe if I ask Orianna I could get a ride on mondays. Then I would work sundays and mondays have voice and bass guitar lessons on tuesdays (hopefully), and wednesday is junior achievement which I'm taking with Brieanne and then thursdays I should go to the gym I think and fridays I will probably go with Karen to this ballroom dancing thing. It sounds like a lot, but I need to stay focused this year and I honestly could do that better if I have tons of things going on. It might make sense to some people and others like my mom, think I am crazy.

Well I think I should go and take Amarock out for a walk and then work on math, or maybe read Harry Potter. Wait stay focused!