Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

I am so bored lately. I have mostly been on the computer surfing the web for anything. Urgh, I wish I had a job. I do have homework, books, and DVDs that I brought over from my mom's house to spend the week here at my dad's house. And I go back on friday actually, so it's kind of soon. Ahh that means that break is almost over. I feel like I want to accomplish something. Hmm, I actually have this weird idea of starting a web show. Details still in progress but it's just an idea.

The holidays are kind of crazy this year because I am at my dad's house and he isn't really big on the whole family time thing, which probably resulted in the fact that we aren't close. Whatever. I get to see my mom soon and have another Christmas before she leaves me for two weeks and goes to Mexico with my stepdad. And just in case it isn't clear: I'm not going. And my mom wants New Years to be this big deal but I want to spend it with my friends and make a movie like we did last year, and maybe go to Zoo Lights. But Ang is leaving to Vegas, and Tamara probably all ready has plans. Sorry if this blog is all 'Poor me'. I'll get off my butt, promise. And stop sleeping all day and night (although I heard it makes you grow). Mostly I'm lonely I guess.

Sarah (soon-to-be-stepsister) and Sharron (soon-to-be-stepmom) came over today before they left to go to Ontario. You can tell it's not going to work out between them but I don't say anything. Sarah does. And mostly it hurts because I always wanted a sister and I love hanging around her and it seems like she is just counting down the days and doesn't care if we never see each other again. I always have Alyson (stepsister on my mom's side) and she even invited me up to see her during the break. I will try to make this the best break yet. Woot!

P.S. The 'Woot!' was a bit sarcastic

Merry Christmas and Here's To Many More

*Boxing Day isn't really a holiday... I know that

One Day I'll Fly Away - Nicole Kidman

Today I was a homebody. Usually my mom is the homebody, and my step dad, and my brother but they were all out for most of the day. But Ang was over last night for a sleepover and stayed till 2:00ish today. We made awesome pancakes with apples and cheese on top. Sounds kind of weird but they are actually really good. Anyway all went well except for some trouble with the apple peeler but it all worked out.

Today I spend hours looking all over the internet for music that I can sing. I found a good site called http://www.sheetmusicplus.com/ and it has everything I could have ever wanted including music from Broadway, popular music that plays on the radio, music from movies and many books just for Mezzo Sopranos or Belters as one book called it. Last year I wasn't really into singing well but this year it's all I do, and not the little humming stuff either. I love belting stuff out and I really want a voice coach to help me with stuff but I guess I will have to make due just practicing by myself until I get back on track in school. I also picked up my old piano books. I was never very good because I only took it for a year and I got as far as Yankee Doodle. But hey, I mastered that song in 10 minutes when I picked it back up! Haha just kidding I'm not actually proud of that. But I am kind of neglecting my bass. It was sad though because when Ang was over she grabbed my Bass for Beginners book, flipped to the back and started playing. I guess I am going through the stage that she when through in the summer when it seemed that guitar was just impossible. It's not that I want it to be easier, its just that I don't spend hours practicing to get better so I don't get better. I know that I must though, because the old saying is true 'Practice makes perfect'.

One of my life goals is to sing 'Defying Gravity' from the musical Wicked perfectly and now 'One Day I'll Fly Away' from Moulin Rouge. And though I kind of want to be the 'bass chick' in the band I am way, way, way more interested in singing right now. My voice has improved so much since choir began in September and once I get notes and everything down singing, bass and piano will all be easier. I really don't read the music in choir. I look at where abouts the note is and how long to hold it for. I also listen to whoever is beside me. I love standing next to two girls in choir because they are pretty loud and I just follow. According to Sklar, I sing very loud. Actually, my music teacher in elementary always said that.

Too bad life wasn't a musical...