Lullaby - Dixie Chicks

'How long do you want to be loved?
Is forever enough? Is forever enough?'

These lyrics from the titled song so obviously state that one can be loved forever. I am beginning that forever doesn't exist. Depressing remark? Definitely. It might be because it's 2:00 AM but I'm just not feeling this whole find your soul mate thing right now.

Today I read two A-List books, though I know I should have attempted to conquer my mountain of homework awaiting me. I hate books like that sometimes because even the evil girl, Cammie Shepard gets the perfect guy. Anna, the main character gets 'the guy' in the end too except evidently it isn't even the same guy of her dreams from the last book. I realize that the girls are 17 verging on 18, and shouldn't get married right away when they find the perfect suitor but the word soul mate translated to a couple months max. And not just in these books, look around. One day someone is falling hard and the next their heart is getting ripped out because, well you fill in the blank.

Maybe this has to do with the fact that my parents are divorced. Therefore I am eternally jaded. But I do have good examples of successful relationships around me. My grandma and grandpa for starters. It's funny but you can tell that they are still in love. Yes L-O-V-E. Coming up on their 50 anniversary and they are still crazy about each other. Lots of people who are still married I don't think are still in love with each other. Maybe they are just scared that no one else will love them.

Wow, who knew that I could be a downer at 2:00 in the morning? Well live and learn I suppose...

Something [Across the Universe Version]

I really love blogging, but no one was replying to my blogs when I was blogging a lot so I kind of stopped. Anyway though I went through a faze where I couldn't stop listening to the Across the Universe soundtrack, for good reason though... it's completely amazing! Actually my next obsession will be the Beatles I can feel it coming on already.

Today was amazing because I got to see Tamara and Jessi after not seeing them in a week. Honestly last week was the worst week in a very long time. Nothing majorly bad happened, but just overall it sucked. I was late, always tired no matter how long I slept, people kept letting me down and honestly I kept letting myself down. It goes back to the school thing really. I feel like someone else in my situation could do everything I have to do, have a social life, a job, a car and maybe even a boyfriend, but I'm hanging on a tread as it is. If I get anything else on my plate right now I might just shut down.

Something and someone is distracting me from my monstrous life I lead. The something is 21 Jump Street, my new found obsession that I have been obsessing over for about a month now but oddly enough I never blogged about yet. I am almost done the third season and I am at a really intense part where Johnny Depp's character, Tom Hanson, who is a cop none the less might get arrested for killing this other cop. He did kind of deserve it if you ask me, but he fled the scene of the crime so I think he is pretty much hooped.

The someone mentioned above is brilliant. And I become an absolute fool around them. Even if nothing happens, which it probably won't, I will probably be a little bit devastated but its become more of a hobby of observing/stalking in a non-illegal way with my new best friend Julie. I still have my other hobbies though and I have actually practiced bass more in the past week than I have in my whole life. Which actually isn't saying much. Sorry fellow band members... I still think we should be called the Polar Bears though. Input??

Thanks =)